Miracles Can Happen...

I know it has been a long time since I have posted, but I didn't want to jinx myself and what seemed too good to be true.  But today being  Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day, I thought today would be one of the better days to bring some positive energy.  As most of you know, I have been trying to conceive and carry a child for 13 years... well, I am PREGNANT!!!!!!

One of our pregnancy announcements.

The other pregnancy announcement.

Let me first start off by saying that I still feel the pain and grief every day for the angels I have lost.  Today of all days, I am thinking about them. It is hard to believe that they would range in age from 5 years old down to 1 year old. All 4 of my angels are still bittersweet blessings for our family, and we will love them into eternity.... and I do know that I will see them again, one day.

The Proof!

And now onto the GREAT NEWS...Surprisingly, last time I wrote here I was only days away from conceiving our little miracle.  We were told that we had less than a 5% max chance of conceiving without fertility treatment... so we had pretty much sidelined trying to conceive for the time being.  We were atually getting ready to begin foster and adoption training.  The crazy thing is that I knew I was pregnant from almost the moment of implantation.  Before I could even get a pregnancy test to turn positive, I was already having morning sickness and my hormone levels were making me pass out.  I had never really had morning sickness with any of my other pregnancies, and the craziness of this time gave me a bit of hope.

7 wk. Ultrasound

12 wk. Ultrasound

We decided to stay pretty quiet with our news for as long as we could, because as many of you know, you don't want to announce the good news and just a short time later have to break the bad news.  We quietly and cautiously told family and very close friends as we entered our second trimester.   They were thrilled, but were as equally caution to keep our news quiet.

18 wk. Ultrasound

  

2nd Trimester

 As we enter our 3rd trimester, I feel that we can now shout it from the roof tops.  We are due with a baby boy on December 28th, and we are so excited that we can hardly control ourselves. Another miracle of this baby is that he is beyond healthy, and is running ahead of schedule.  We were worried that he may have been like me and run the risk of a congenital heart defect, but even his heart is perfect. 

Beginning 3rd Trimester

Now that we are officially letting the world know, I hope to be able to keep you posted about our little joy!  Though lets not forget the little angels that will always leave with bittersweet tears.
We feel so blessed with our miracle, but we also know that he has 4 amazing guardian angels looking out for him.